I Made a Mistake

I made a mistake last week. OK, I am sure I made more than one, but I made one that had immediate ramifications and I am still sore about it. I was on a long drive home from a business trip when I stopped about two hours into it for lunch. Since I had time, I decided to enjoy lunch instead of stuffing some fast food into my face at 70 miles per hour. At the end of my leisurely lunch I open my wallet to discover my Corporate credit card missing. The last place I used it was at dinner the previous night at a restaurant two hours in the wrong direction. My sinking feeling turned to a little bit of relief when I called that restaurant and they confirmed they had my card, but I would still have to drive back there and get it before going home. My mistake cost me an extra four hours of driving and made me get home so late that I missed any chance of having some family time.

Throughout life we make mistakes continually and need to atone for them. Perhaps we forget to pay a bill on time and incur a financial penalty. Maybe we say things to loved ones in the heat of the moment that can’t be taken back. These mistakes start long before the incident occurs because we should not even permit ourselves to think evil of our loved ones, but it happens. Thinking about our mistakes too much can lead to depression which can lead to more mistakes.

The mistakes we make to each other can often be made right. If we crash into someone else’s car, our insurance will repair or replace that car and cover the medical expenses. If we rack up a lot of debt living beyond our means we can knuckle down and pay it off over time. But what about the mistakes we make with Yahweh? How do we atone for those mistakes? What can we give the Creator to compensate for our sins since He created everything? Remember, He is a very jealous God, so He does notice when we deviate from His will, especially if we were supposed to know better.

“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. This is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the Light, for their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But he who practices the truth comes to the Light, so that his deeds may be manifested as having been wrought in God.” John 3:16-21

Well, right there is the plan for how we make ourselves right with Yahweh. We have to believe in His Son and then come into the light. Belief that Yahweh sent His Son to die for our sins is the starting point. The next part, coming into the light, takes incredible effort. It really shouldn’t take that much effort, though. If we stop and think about it, either we step into the light now or it gets shined on us at the judgment. Either way, all of our deeds will be exposed.

Oftentimes when we quote scripture we forget the context of what we are citing. This is very true of the verses I just referenced above. All of us read those verses like they are written specifically to us. We read them like a letter to all mankind. But that’s not what is happening there. I believe those words were preserved for the purpose of all mankind, but there is a context and it is quite profound.

Now there was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews;  this man came to Jesus by night and said to Him, “Rabbi, we know that You have come from God as a teacher; for no one can do these signs that You do unless God is with him.” John 3:1-2 (emphasis added)

Nicodemus came to Yeshua at night. The entire conversation takes place in the dark. Yeshua was scolding Nicodemus for coming to Him in secret. Nicodemus wanted to become a closet believer and Yeshua knew it. Nicodemus wanted to retain his high position among the Jews and also strike up a relationship with the Messiah. He wanted to have his cake and eat it, too. He was conflicted. Yeshua’s teaching in this dialogue has many layers but he essentially told Nicodemus, “If you want to be part of this, you’re going to have to do it where everyone can see”.  This is the same theme when Yeshua said that he who loves his live will lose it.

In John 7:50, Nicodemus sticks up for Yeshua. OK, he doesn’t do that but he does start to come out of his shell a little and tries to help out while maintaining his distance. But at John 19:39, Nicodemus’ conversion is complete as he is there to help bury the dead Messiah. At this point, Nicodemus has fully come into the light and no longer cares that all will know of his belief in Yeshua. It was the preparation day for Pesach and Nicodemus, a high ranking Jew of the Pharisees, was clearly not where he was supposed to be. This well recognized man was now converted and had taken hundred pounds of supplies to bury a dead body, thus defiling himself from observing Pesach. Remember how the Jews wouldn’t even enter the Praetorium to accuse Yeshua because that would defile them? Now Nicodemus, one of their rulers, is openly defiling himself because he knows it is the right thing to do.

As we begin to enter into the Passover season and recall our mistakes, let’s take Nicodemus’ transformation into consideration. We all make mistakes. Sometimes we make them so often we just can’t fathom a time without mistakes. But let’s keep in mind the gravity of the Messiah’s sacrifice and be strong in our belief that God did indeed send His Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish. Those mistakes that we make which we cannot atone for have been covered, if we believe and come into the light.